We turned in our home study paperwork today. We also applied for our passports. We should hear from a social worker sometime next week to schedule the first interview. Please pray that everything moves very quickly and smoothly, as the Lord wills.
Regarding treasure and pearls, I had a thought cross my mind that touched me deeply and in a way was disturbing. It relates to parables of the treasure in the field and of the merchant seeking fine pearls (Matthew 13:44-46). A man finds a great treasure in a field and because of his great joy over the treasure, he sells all that he has and purchases that field. When the merchant finds a "pearl of great value, he went and sold all that he had and bought it." Sheri and I have found two great treasures, two perfect pearls, and we are willing to give all to bring them home. The desire is so strong that it has been hard to think of much else. It is almost all consuming.
Now before I get comments that I have taken those passages out of context, let me say that I know they are referring to Christ and His kingdom. Matthew Henry’s Concise Commentary states the following:
"1. That of the treasure hid in the field. Many slight the gospel, because they look only upon the surface of the field. But all who search the Scriptures, so as in them to find Christ and eternal life, John 5:39, will discover such treasure in this field as makes it unspeakably valuable; they make it their own upon any terms. Though nothing can be given as a price for this salvation, yet much must be given up for the sake of it. 2. All the children of men are busy; one would be rich, another would be honourable, another would be learned; but most are deceived, and take up with counterfeits for pearls. Jesus Christ is a Pearl of great price; in having him, we have enough to make us happy here and for ever. A man may buy gold too dear, but not this Pearl of great price. When the convinced sinner sees Christ as the gracious Saviour, all things else become worthless to his thoughts."
Sheri and I are willing to adopt two children using the entirety of our house fund in the process. We are willing to take the "risk" because we believe the Lord is calling us to this, and we believe these girls are our daughters. We are willing.
Here is the disturbing part: why have I not felt this strongly about the Gospel? I love the Lord. I desire to serve Him, but I have not been "on fire." We love our children and we love these two girls as if they already were ours and are willing to go to great lengths to bring them home, but what about Him? What are we, no, I, what am I willing to do for Him? The Lord has brought to my attention several times this year that I am too comfortable (scares me to wonder what will happen to get away from "comfort") and that I need to serve Him much more. I believe reaching out and bringing our daughters home is serving Him, but shouldn't there be more? Shouldn't every moment of every day be used for Him and His glory? Contrary to many popular teachings out there, God is not a magic genie, just sitting there waiting for us to give him permission to bless us with stuff. He is the Lord, the great I AM. King of Kings, God with us. It is supposed to be All about HIM. Everything we do should be for Him. Not for the favor or applause of men, but for His great glory! Comfort. Fear. Those two things stop me.
The Lord has laid two children on my heart. In fact, I believe He has given me a heart for the orphans in Ukraine in general. I have mentioned to Sheri several times now about being missionaries to the orphans in Ukraine. Perhaps that is where the Lord is leading us down the road. It is not a thought I can easily dismiss. It may start with a few short term trips - we can even use the time while we are there to adopt the girls (all Lord willing of course). But perhaps He is calling us to more. Stay tuned and please, please pray.
Another note, look at that last line in commentary excerpt above, "...all things else become worthless to his thoughts." To those who have thought us foolish to use our house fund for the adoption, know this: God will provide all that we need. We will do what He calls us to do, else we would not be His servants. All things else become worthless in our thoughts.